Every part of my music i sit down and go over, sometimes i am so happy with it, but if you give me a month i might not like it anymore or i will want a drastic change. This may be from my dramatic personality or from my artistic opinion of my own work but whatever it is ,its the reason why it has taken me so long to finish my CD.If you take singing like you take for instance and accountant you will understand that one mistake can mess up the outcome of the final performance.For me the simple mistakes is what i hear in my voice or a show, an although you might not hear it with your normal audience hearing ears, my musician ear hears it and my response is always the same automatic mental notes are made. I mark it , so when i have to do that song or movement again i will not do it the same way again. Now say i make the same mistake then i go back to drawing board an change it completely to fit me . I am very hard on myself and you will rarely hear me say how great a performance is ,that is only because i believe in so much of what i do.Its not KTV, its my career its my life.I breathe ,eat ,shit music. Its guides me in a way nothing else can(besides love) Awwww.
I am with someone who is so keen on details that sometimes i get exhausted with the organization of everything ,but in the details of the love , i see that its the small details and time and effort put into making things amazing for me and that s why my love for that person is so strong. Oprah says that love is in the details and i believe that so much. She is my hero as most of my friends know so when she says things like this i am behind her 100%.But when does it cross lines? well i cant answer that question because i am bias an one sided and can not see anything but what i feel in music. Everything else in my life i can compromise or work out or even try to understand your way of thinking .But with music things are only one sided for me.We musicians can be a bit stubborn about that. But believe me we don't do it to harm you Innocent civilians. So when you say great performance Lucius!!! i will probably say uh huh or whatever...or a very dry thank you ,cause i know better. Hopefully when my music is revealed you will be able to hear the small details an see that i put my all into it. If not i hope you at least can enjoy the effort behind you ...
